|Current music:||"American Woman," Lenny Kravitz|
This is such a happy time in my life, and I've figured it all out...you know, why I'm so calm and I'm not pissed off at anyone...Okay, well first I'll have to tip my hat off to Mr. Maturity, who finally knocked on my door and hit me over the head with his "Common Sense" briefcase. But secondly, I think I'm happier because Beth is MIA whenever my friends and I go out. You know, it's kinda harsh to say, but we're all better off without her (and by "we" I mean society), like, she brought on the drama and we all feel a lot better whenever it's just the four of us (me, Lindz, Sara, & Kris). Everything is so much more peaceful...we go out, and no one fights, no one has to watch what they say, there's no secrets being kept (except this one about Beth, of course) and we're all realizing it. I mean, the idjit ( Beth) got herself grounded by lying to her father. Okay, first of all, she was only grounded for a month, but then she lied again, which got her more grounded, and then she lied again. I don't feel bad for her, knowing this now. And then she got pissed off at Sara and I for discussing our weekend plans with one another in front of her. Okay, first of all, whenever she would go out and do something with someone else, they'd talk about it in front of me...I don't care. Everyone else has had that happen to them as well. But she freaks out over it now and it's like, "God!! Stay grounded!!" And another thing- she dug her own grave. So it's not our fault when she can't goout...Why does she take it out on us? Everyone else thinks she's changing, I just think it's her friends that are changing. This summer was a vital one- everyone got their licenses and whatnot, and we hung out a lot more than we normally did before. It brounght us closer together and Beth wasn't a part of it. We made the evolution as just four, and I think that's how it's going to be. I'm not even going to bother with letting her know that that's how it is, because that just starts up more drama. It'll happen on its own, I have the distinct feeling I won't need to intervene with my big mouth...
And God, that's such a beautiful feeling.