| Current mood: |  flirty |
| Current music: | mae - summertime |
I'm driving away...
so this one guy that I had jewelry with is hot... today I saw him and he looked really good. sometimes I think I create these crushes and then when I don't see people anymore it's like it's ok to have a crush on them. b/c it's safer that way.. for me at least... but that doesn't get me anywhere... I can't be like Samantha and be sexy and cool and confident. well... I can to extent but then I become this mumbling heap of dyslexic sentences... plus I'm not sleeping well at all... last night I must have only got an hour of sleep. and it shows! no amount of make up will hide my deep circles under the eyes. but it is exciting to see someone you've seen for the last five months and not really thought anything of them... well not a lot at least and see them and go damn they look really good. I wonder if people think that way about me. Mae is my new favorite band this month... week... day... I listen to a little of Rilo Kiley that Jen suggested the other day. good stuff.. reminds me of cat power I don't know why. I think I am lacking social when it comes to relationships. how far will fear push me from what I really want? who wants to live in fear the rest of their lives? in fourty five minutes I have to head out of here. :\ I don't want to go ... computer art is a joke. the teacher is a joke. he knows less about computers than me ... which doesn't make him seem respectable... I'm really trying especially when he asks us how to do things... I thought it was going to be fun but it looks like something I'll just get a great grade in b/c it's easy to breeze through... not to sound mean but I want to learn something damn it... not just do powerpoint things for him to look at... I learned powerpoint a long time ago... I want to learn harder things... surfing the internet is not hard for me... I am a google master... mistress?? ;) but seriously... I do eight thousand things online at once... which is leading me to get carpal tunnel faster but hey... I'm happy. I feel like going for a joy ride but this weather sucks ass!!! I just want to look around for good pictures... that I can take with my hand made pinhole camera fun times! ok... well I'm going to get ready for my next class... leave the comments my journal get's lonely... :D
Mae - Summertime lyrics:
Summertime, summertime
brought me back to thinking you were mine all those times.
We laid it down and left it all behind, we were blind.
Oh, the summertime.
We could ride, we could ride.
Take my hand and watch the world go by.
Laugh or cry, well we need to try, get off the line, time to fly.
Oh, the summertime.
Go on ahead and let it fade away.
No looking back you know the past will stay.
It's you and me, we could get out of here.
Jump in and go and we could drive for years.
We could feel alive...
Here we are, here we are,
windows down we see a falling star.
Stop the car.
Waiting for nothing but our beating hearts, going far.
Oh, the summertime.
So feel the air, feel the air,
take the map and point to anywhere.
I don't care. Fingers through your hair,
the sky I've seen is blue and green.
Oh, the summertime.
Driving away, leaving it all behind.
Driving away, just driving away.
(Read comments)
|
