|Current mood:|| exhausted|
|Current music:||Ben Harper...Another Lonely Day|
"She had the oddest sense of being herself invisible, unseen; unknown..."
I swear, just as rapidly as the time is passing it seems like I'm in a time warp of constant "todays". Its weird.
Andrew and I got into this huge argument because he wants to blame himself for the cake incident...and I prefer to place the blame where it belongs. On Joe. I'm over it now...but we got into a huge argument. He bought me flowers and brought them up to my job while I was working.
Note: I am not the romantic type, Public displays of affection make me nervous and embarassed. I'm learning to not hate it so much though.
Andrew and I have been together for, essentially, 9 months, almost. I met him around the 12th of January and we've be pretty much together ever since, though we weren't officially boyfriend/girlfriend until March. Anyway, we've been together for 9 months and this was the first time he's ever bought me flowers. I'll remember how sweet he was about it. How perfect he made it feel in spite of the fact that they were 'make-up' flowers. He was sorry about the argument and that is all that mattered. And he even remembered that I love wild flowers and such...they are gorgeous. I've taken pictures of the bouquet and I'll put them up when I get them developed and scanned.
Friday-Tuesday I worked 42 hours. That with school and studying, and ballet has left me pretty lifeless. Energy depletion at an all time high. Waiting tables has proven to be better for me (money wise) than greeting/hostessing, but I'm still the head hostess, just picking up server shifts when they need it, or I need it. Yesterday I could barely move faster than the pace of a snail... it was horrible, and I was particularly exhausted from ballet.
I have been so on top of things and now I feel all behind and such...
These are the things I need to do to be back on track, I could, ideally, be back on track by tomorrow.
Read Mrs. Dalloway
Read through chapter 11 in The Grapes of Wrath
Do Interview of Expostory writing (tonight)
write 4 page essay on interview (due tomorrow)
Read Chapters 6,7,9 in Biology text
Retype notes for Biology
Study ballet terminology (mostly spelling) for test 10/06
That's pretty much it. The main thing is reading Mrs. Dalloway and The Grapes of Wrath
I'm doing the interview this afternoon and then transcribing it and writing the paper tonight. I have two weeks before my exam for Biology so the reading of the chapters and retyping of notes is something I want to do for my personal benefit. I have an assignment in there but that is due on the 14th so I have time to work on that. Its not that much, I'm not really that behind, I just really like the feeling of being completely on top of things.
Completely in control.
My thighs are looking thinner by the day.
Now if I can just get the chaos that is this apartment under control all will be in order.
I'm waiting on that feeling that all is in order....