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sorry?
krissie approached me this afternoon and apologized for everything..
i guess it was obvious that i wasn't really buying what she is saying..
i was in a bad mood, talk about good timing..
anyway, i appreciate the gesture..
and just like what i said to her..
i don't hate her, but i don't trust her..
trust is just too big to give up again..
jam made a comment to my lj entry asking me to visit a link if i had the time..
i clicked on the link and it was one of her entries..
that entry was all about apologies to friends..specifically, me&steven..
...silence...
I don't know if you still have room in your heart to forgive me, but I'm asking you anyway. Can you still forgive me? I still am hoping we can be friends again, even if it means going back to square one. I know it will take a while for you to trust in me again, but I'm willing to earn it, if you are willing to give our friendship a chance.
i can forgive but i cannot forget..being friends again requires trust..and that is THE ONE THING that i cannot give to her anymore..talk about being heartless huh?
i just don't want to be the emotional wreck that i was before..i don't want to risk my now, thankfully, stable life to be screwed up again by the very people i trust..
to be brutally honest, i am happy she's not part of my life anymore..she's just part of the past, end of story..
i think she and her friends already messed up my life too much that the best we could ever be is the way me&kat are right now..talking to each other like mere acquaintances..coz that's what we are..
i cannot trust her..not now..not in the near future..
she just happened to be the very person i used to trust the most..
believe it or not, there was a point where i trusted her more than  bonakid..
but she screwed me up big time..even going to the extent of hacking my accounts (mail&journal) and actually sending bits&pieces of my journal entries to her "friends"..
having to go through all that sucks big time..and i'm not about to risk having to go through the same thing again..
it's JUST NOT HAPPENING..
call me heartless..call me whatever you want to call me..
but it's not happening..we can't be friends..we can just be acquaintances..
that's the best there is right now..
over..
to the one concerned..i guess you get the picture..
i'll tell you what i told krissie..
i don't hate you..but i don't trust you..
that goes the same for you..
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