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No, I didn't think so. I won't even bother making this friends only entry. My uncle died this morning. It was such a shock cuz he was fine yesterday. My mom came downstairs at around 11 pm or so and she was talking to my uncle, giving him honey. But he said he was feeling hot -.- At that time I was watching "Dracula; Dead and Loving It"... so then I fell asleep. This morning I woke up at around 5 am and went to wash my face but I didn't realize about my uncle. Then after that, around 9 am, my mom was making drink for him and asked my cousin "Why isn't your dad up yet?" and she said "Dunno. He's still asleep.." So my mom asked my maid to wake him up when she heard my maid screaming to my mom "OH MY GOD LOOK AT UNCLE! I THINK SOMETHING'S WRONG WITH HIM!" He was dead.. and he already stiffened up and his face was blue so we suspected he died last night. I admire my mom who could control herself.. but I couldn't -.- I'm too sensitive.. so I had tears in my eyes.. I got on the internet for like 5 mins.. and my mom was making calls. He called my uncle that's pissed off for no reason at us and he was yelling and shit. But he came anyway and saw me on the comp and he was like bitching at me. So I gave him A COLD DEATH GLARE and he got pissed -.- He yelled at me, wanting to beat me up to death. And he was calling me names including "The baby that was picked up by the trashcan"... that hurt me badly. I mean FOR GOD'S SAKE MY UNCLE JUST DIED and he was in the room, DID HE HAVE NO RESPECT FOR THE DEAD AT ALL??? So we were yelling at each other with maid restraining him from killing me... I fucking did NOTHING and he was like "YOU MAKE MY LIFE FUCKING MISERABLE BITCH" And I was like "WHAT THE HELL DID I DO?!".. so yeah. I think it's because my mom didn't help him with his money problem because why? My mom is already paying me with college money and stuff and we are BROKE. But he is one selfish bastard. My cousin came down, and she got yelled too. Isn't it enough that her dad just died that he had to put her into another misery? My cousin is retarded though (literally) so she wasn't pissed. She even went to the cemetary with him too I think. But I swear, one day if we have another fight again, it'll be either him killing me first or me killing him to protect myself from being killed. I swear. Sometimes I wonder what kind of family I have. What kind of life I have. I mean I've been in so much misery lately... seriously, if it wasn't for my religion, I'd be like those who can't control themselves and commit suicide which is pointless but as long as I could get away from these people... Friends offline and online are giving me so much misery.. family too.. but I just keep it to myself..I don't usually rant about every single thing that happens cuz I don't want to remember it .. but now I feels like I'm on the edge of a cliff ready to jump off if provoked. *sighs* But I want to thank my closest online friends who are on AIM right now for trying to cheer me up. I love you guys to bits. And thanks to papi for SMS'ing me. At least I know somebody cares :) *hugs* Ok i'm gonna stop. i've been crying so much today, my eyes are so sore. PS: Where am I going to sleep tonight? They did the who funeral thingy including wrapping the body in white clothing before burying it (Malay tradition) and they did it in the living room.. WHERE I SLEEP -.- And my maid made jokes about it saying "Oh when you're sleeping tonight.. you'll be all alone downstairs and we'll all be upstairs.. he'll come and visit you and say HELLO".. ;___; Post a comment in response: |
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