|Current mood:|| annoyed|
My father can be a really insensitive jerk sometimes. Now is one of those times.
Earlier I was in my room studying for my math test, which is Monday, when he came up and went in his bedroom. Everything was fine and peaceful until I went downstairs for a few minutes. I was done studying for today (though I still had other homework to do) and wanted to go to the bathroom and take a short break before I started on it. I was gone not five minutes when I could hear the music blasting from his room from downstairs. Okay, yes, I'm gone, maybe he doesn't think I am coming back so he is playing his music. A short while later I return, plop back on the bed where I was studying and and start futzing around with my books.
"Is this going to bother you?"
*turns volume down a smidge*
"Is this better?"
"It's alright, I'm going to go upstairs."
*turns volume back up*
I just wanted to smack him silly. He is completely insensitive to everyone around him. So long as he is happy and getting his way, no one else matters. My schoolwork is important, much more important then him listening to some music while he surfs the web! But he doesn't care, and he is like this with everything and it isn't easy to live with. It doesn't matter what is going on, it is like when he comes into the room everything must stop and begin revolving around him. Doing schoolwork, need to concentrate, too bad, I'm here now and I must play his music or watch a DVD. Watching TV, too bad, give me that remote, I want to put on a movie...oh, we've watched this ten times already...oh you hate this movie, what do I care. This is what I'm in the mood to watch! Oh, were you saving that _________ (insert food item here)? Was that yours? Oh, well, I was hungry. And if you did anything like this to him, forget it, he would be on your back in a flash! I can only imagine his reaction if I turned on music while he was trying to work! I'd be seeing those fangs faster than a cat can blink its eye!
I get so tired of it. He is one of the main reasons I want to move out, I just can't take him. His selfishness and his hypocrisy, it just drives me up the wall. I don't know what is going on inside his head, but it certainly doesn't involve any of us. I try to minimalize conversation with him, but sometimes if I am really excited about something and no one else is around I will tell him about it and you know, over ninety percent of the time if I talk for more than thirty seconds, I know he stops listening. I could launch into a line of drivel and he wouldn't even notice that I was still talking. I've actually stopped what I was saying to him in mid-sentence on several occassions and he hasn't even noticed. But again, if you do this to him, if you aren't listening, or if you don't run right over and show interest in something he cares about he gets angry.
He wants to just take and take and take, but in reality he doesn't really give anything. And I personally can not take that.