| Current mood: | lethargic |
| Current music: | Portishead |
Today I showed up at work a half-hour late. The branch manager was out of town for the day which made me the boss for the day. I have a job in which my work day is spent on the road. After checking in the rest of the other technicians (a process similar to a parent asking their children if they were good while they were away. Hmmm, what-will-they say?) I proceeded to my first stop. After that stop I realized that I forgot to check in my own work from the week before. I went back to the office, checked in my paperwork and then proceeded to lunch at a fabulous local mexican resteraunt that offers 75 cent tacos on Mondays and Tuesdays. I usually eat there both days (dinner one night lunch the next). At this point it was damn near noon and I had only managed to complete one of my twelve stops for the day. Now if I hustled I would be able to finish the rest of the stops by 4:30 but instead (since I didn't feel like eating in my truck and being that my house was just around the corner) I decided to go home and eat lunch. It is now nearly 4:00 and I have yet to get back to work. In fact I have absolutely no plans on returning today. I have no Idea what I will tell my boss if anything about why I didn't get my services done. I do this or something similar damn near everyday. I need to break this cycle. Ways that I might be able to would be to find another job that wasn't so self-motivationally driven or suck it up and start being responsible for my actions. At least for the next three months I will likely do neither. My boss is too weak to fire me, I am too lazy to find a new job and accepting responsibility is what I fear most in life. responsibility becomes synonymous with "grown-up". A status I have put a great amount of effort into avoiding. I am 24 years young. What the hell am I doing?
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