|Current mood:|| angry|
|Current music:||The sound of me beating my head against a wall|
why live some ask?
damn life has been so awesome lately i feel like i cannot even contain myself so i just have to get some of this stuff out.
Ok so where do I start? How about we do some chronological order.
So lets start with me not handing in the rough draft of my term paper till 4 days late? Why you ask, why didn’t u just do it. I don’t know, I am not a lazy kid I just could not bring myself to just sit down and fucking type the thing. So yea I suck.
So I typed it Thursday morning at like 5am. Then went to school had track till 4:45 and work at 5. I worked all night, it wasn’t awful but it was getting a little busy for just two people. Then I hung out with Kelly j. after. She is an awesome girl and I like her but I just felt like I was not into our relationship 100%. I broke up with her hoping that we can still remain friends cause like I just said I do like her.
So the only thing that brightened up on Friday was the weather. I went to school and when I got home from school i found a letter in the mail from Stevens. I instantly became happy cause when I went for my interview the woman said that she really liked me and I seemed like a very intelligent well rounded kid. So what does the letter say? Waitlisted just like G. Tech. Fucking amazing.
So that night I went to Ryan’s in hopes of their being something other then apple bees to do. Spanda, Kelly J, and Rachel were there along with the usual minus boots cause he was in toms river. We just kind of all sat there and it made me think about how me and Kelly weren’t “together” anymore. I went and laid in the bed of my truck and just sat wanting eve thing to be ok. I thought a lot about my parents. It is sinking in that I will be living here with just my mom and my sister and making trips down to brick to visit dad. A broken home. Never really ever believed it was coming.
So Saturday the weather got even nicer. It was so beautiful that I went driving, then I picked up Dom and we went down the freehold mall so I could pick out some new shoes. I got some kick ass green and gray adidas. Then on the way home I am following this explorer that is flying. I was only doing about 75-80 just letting him be the bait for any cops that would happen to pass, and guess who gets pulled over 1/2mile away from my exit on 18. O it was me, apparently clocked at 86. That mother fucker came all the way across the grass median cause he was flying the other way on 18, and pulled me over. Great a ticket for 21mph of the speed limit. And the fines are doubled for it being a 65mph zone. FUCK YEA NICKO! God I am fucking up. I am just losing here it seems. Ok I am done cause this just made me all types of depressed again.
o and there is no moral to this story