| Current mood: |  depressed |
| Current music: | Matchbook Romance // Save Yourself |
yes...i think what just happened would be classified as an emotional breakdown... i dont know why i feel like this... i cant do it. i need to get away... for a day. a month. a year. the rest of my life... i want to start over... please. im hurting soooooo bad inside... i swear today its been coming all day... the tears kept building up... but it just came out... and its still coming out and i cant fucking handle it i cant handle anyhting i cant handle my family i cant handle my friends i cant handle the fact that im not in love anymore... i cant handle life.... i just cant... i dont know how i will get up from this chair, and i know when i do i will walk up to my bed... and i will lay there for a few hours... crying, trying to figure shit out, and it wont work, and ill end up being mentally exhausted, and i will pass out... and i wont get out of bed tomorrow... ill wake up at around noon, as usual... and i will lay there until i have to get up to goto work, as usual... and i will come home, and i will sit here for a few hours on this stupid piece of shit machine... and i will then walk up to my room, realize im at home, alone on new years... and i will fall asleep alone... and i will sleep until noon, i will wake up, lay there until i have to goto band practice and repeat over and fucking over and fucking over, and this will probably happen for the rest of my life....
i dont fucking get it
i dont care to anymore
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