Yeah, I haven't updated in awhile cuz frankly my life isn't that interesting, that and I am VERY lazy.... haha its sad that I'm so lazy I wont even type this for like 5-10 mins. Anyways thats not the point. Recently, I have had this really stressfull up and down rollercoaster of emotion w/ friends etc, and I realize it was getting on people's nerves because it was totally unjustified... I realized the other day that I was being extremely emo all the time, sad about friends and relationships, but i really had NO reason to be... Mr. Wheeler had it right w/ the downward spiral thing, seriously. But I'm tired of being perpetually sad, without cause. Yesterday I attempted a return to my normal self, and it worked. I was happy! Everything about that day went extremely well, and for the first time in a LONG time I enjoyed myself. The school day went well with no blemishes to speak of, except maybe the physics quiz. But i have a feeling with the curve implimented I'll do allright (thank god). Then I think Patricks was the refresher of my day. No, my month. When I got there, the atmosphere was just like I always wanted it to be.. it was warm, welcoming, recieving, and SO much fun... it reminded me of the good old days when I never gave a damn(LOL I sound like an old person). Playing basketball w/ Patrick Charlie + Josh just was like.. a stress relief vent... I wish I could go over there more often, its like therapy for me I swear to god lol. Anyways.. I'm feeling SO good right now, and I love all of my friends dearly for putting up with me :-D.