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I haven't updated in a while, well just cuz I didn't feel like it.. Things for school are a little chaotic.. I might not finish my assignments for photo which blows.. And the only times she has a photo lab after school is on Thurdays and I have class and HELM.. So it blows major ass. I have to decide what I am going to do. .And tomorrow I have to retake that test in Mr.Vecellio's class.. I need to study for that.. I am starting to get stressed again.. Yesterday Josh came over and we watched Trainspotting.. It was so much fun.. Then he stayed for dinner and experienced the famous Sunday Dinner.. LOL it was hilarious.. Kelly and Lindsay were giggling throughout the entire meal.. Josh, is like wowness.. He is so amazing.. Yeah, I do still like Vlad, but I don't know.. Before I would of just jumped into a relationship but now, I have to stop and think... Everyone is still hung up on that shit from that game.. I'm fucking sorry.. It doesn't excuse what I did.. But being pissed off forever doesn't help either.. We all make mistakes.. I guess we really do become our parents.. I'm hope I can get off this path I'm headed down.. Today I didn't leave the lunch table.. I just didn't feel like it.. But when Anthony and all them sat down at the table next to us with Cal and Grayum, they left (Cal and Grayum).. I thought it was weird.. I am so tired. I wish it would be cold.. All weekend I've been thinking of just leaving and going to Boston.. Starting a new life.. Where no one knows me.. I would never leave, cuz I'm too scared.. But I just wish I could go to the place I dream of and love.. It felt so good to be in Boston... I just wish...
<3 Jessica the Messica