Sometimes I think I'am the biggest ass in the world...right now being one of those times. I would really like to just give up on guys in general and go back to the safety of Z but if I do that then I'll feel like I'm not giving myself a chance. But then again...I'am constantly feeling a little hurt. J and I haven't talked for a week, well almost a week. It'll be a week tomorrow. And Aussie started calling me again and wants to hang out before he leaves for Puerto Rico. When he called me I was really suprised. My brother handed me my phone and I was seriously taken back by the fact that it was him. He actually sounded happy to talk to me. I dunno what the hells going on in my life anymore and I fuckin hate it. Oh well, I guess this is my payback for how selfish I was with Z. But he has Angie now so everythings cool with him. HE has Angie and I have no one. Well other then J who loves to confuse me. Well I'm going to caht with some ppl....