|Current mood:|| indescribable|
|Current music:||"can you feel the love tonight" lion king soundtrack|
missing the joe schmo show makes me very sad...
sad. such a little word with soooooooooooo much meaning. and it can be used to serve so many differant purposes. like right now for instance im sad for a few reasons, but they are all differant kinds of sad. sad that i have to go to two doctors appointments on thursday, sad that i missed the joe schmo show, sad cause king kongs gonna fuck me up and give me v.d.'s. yeah other shit too, but i cant talk about all that. emily and kaykay and maggie all have birthdays coming up. did you ever get the feeling someone was trying to not so subtly tell you something and you know they are and you choose to aknowledge them and it ends up hurting you. old people in love is the sweetest thing ever. like they've loved each other for so long and have been together forever and its just real. it seems like no one has that anymore. when i look around me and see the attitude that everyone i know has about love and sex it makes me wonder if its even worth trying. doesnt anyone have any respect for themselves anymore? i mean its obvious that most people definatly dont have respect for other people. and you know what? it sickens me. it truly makes me want to throw up. all these people going around having sex and not even caring about the person, all they care about is making themselves feel good. and you know what? thats the most selfish unromantic thing ive ever heard. so maybe in hopeless and unrealistic, but id rather search for whats important to me and be respected then to settle for the scum that surronds us on an everyday basis. wow. suddenly feel so much NOT better. leave me love, i really need it.