|Current mood:|| cold|
|Current music:||when i fall in love - celine dion|
and the moment i can feel that you feel that way too.
I want to dissapear into nothingness so i don't have to wonder anymore. I hate remembering him, or it, or them, or myself.
I keep having nightmares. I don't just mean like ooh aah a monster is going to eat me alive.. it's all real things. Real things that are real fears and every single day for weeks now, I have to rethink what actually happened and what didn't at all.
They are so real. Sometimes I want to stay in them just because they're actually happening. They seem more real than reality - because in reality, intensity is never in the form of tears.