firefly (nikkibee) wrote, @ 2003-10-08 19:03:00

Current mood:	cold
Current music:	when i fall in love - celine dion

and the moment i can feel that you feel that way too.
I want to dissapear into nothingness so i don't have to wonder anymore. I hate remembering him, or it, or them, or myself.

I keep having nightmares. I don't just mean like ooh aah a monster is going to eat me alive.. it's all real things. Real things that are real fears and every single day for weeks now, I have to rethink what actually happened and what didn't at all.

They are so real. Sometimes I want to stay in them just because they're actually happening. They seem more real than reality - because in reality, intensity is never in the form of tears.

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