| Current mood: |  indescribable |
| Current music: | True Hollywood Romance // Common Rotation |
Invest yourself in one more trance...
I talked to Tom for a little bit the other day. I wanted to apologize for things, but first ended up talking about some other things. Things that I've wanted to talk about but have been wary to do so. But I told him about these things, and it was quite the relief to get it out there. It's not good to keep things bottled up.
I still haven't been sleeping well. In fact, I've been sleeping even less. Eliza probably gets more rest than I do. I'm just bothered by things. Things that shouldn't even bother me but do. Because I let them. But I don't know how else to respond to certain situations. Some things are different and confusing, and...I don't know. I suppose I could talk about them, but I don't even want to think about them.
Tom suggested that I discuss something with my wife. Because she deserves to know and it's unfair to her otherwise. Well, essentially he advised me to talk to her about my feelings for her. I'm pretty hesitant about this. I do love her in a sense, and the last thing I ever wanted to do was hurt her. I care an awful lot about her, even if it's not quite in the same sense that she does me.
This is quite possibly the vaguest post. Kelly's pointed out on more than one occassion my habit of being vague with things. It's just that sometimes I don't know what kind of reactions certain things would garner from people if I told them, so I keep them to myself, or allude to them in hopes that people would figure them out on their own.
Ok, I'm ending this now because I'm making little sense to myself. I'll blame it on the lack of sleep.
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