Nick (nickdive) wrote, @ 2004-02-07 02:44:00

Ok well due to recent events *cough* break up *cough* Ive decided I need to start taking time out everyday just to think about my life... I mean of course I do that everyday anyways but I really need to look into it to see how I can improve the problems I have created.

Im going to woodfield to go shopping tommorow... today I got a all american rejects shirt and a button that says white trash and went to a leash and scoop concert god I love them anyways back to my serious shit.

Well today alex said hi to me and it made me realize maybe im the reason he never talked to me because I never made the effort to talk to him.

If I wouldent have yelled at Rhiannon that one day stacy and her never would have got mad at me.

lets see what else was my fault...

I cant even remember why the other people dont like me... Wait did any of them ever say they didnt like me? I dont think they did so why the hell do I think they do?

So maybe if I start being a nice little friendly Nick ill have friends... but wait isnt that what got my where I am being a happy nick? god im so confused I dont know what got me where and how.

God too much for me to try and figure out its just one of those mysterys in life that you never get to figure out...

emo kid eh? bah screw you I know im a emo kid so dont bother me about it.

I guess what I need to do now is find out whos going to stick by me and I knwo right now its. Amy, Amanda, Jessica,Emily, Jason and Sean... blah whatever.

I wanted to write a little thing about my life.. but I dont know where at in my life to start... if anyone has any ideas where I should start please tell me....

So anyways back to the first thing so yeah my ex's boyfriend gets online and starts talking a bunch of shit to me and my ex wont talk to me I mean what the hell is that? people are so fricken immature latly it pisses me off.

I dont belive in loving forever.
Only love I know is the love that comes and goes.
Is this the true love people speak of?
If that is true love I want nothing to do with it.
Love pretty much like a drug...
It makes you extremly happy and good feeling
and in the end you end up terribly sad and sometimes barly hanging on...
So if this is what love is...
tell me why do we go looking for it so often?
People come and go...
Words leave permanent scars in our hearts...
scars that will never heal...
You can try and mend them up....
but eventually they will be shown to everyone...
You can move on from a first love...
But after the first time is it ever the same?...
when your heart breaks...
can it ever be put back together?
Is love just something in our head?
Or is it truly in our heart?

bah emo ass shit right thurr yo

so many things are running through my head right now im so confused and lost
will you please help me find the way?
the way to a better life
a place where I can forget the past
a place where we can talk
I need you to help me
I dont want to be alone anymore
To many nights i sat and waited
for a call I never would get
did I really deserve this?

bah whatever :|

You told me it was over by calling me a dick
you couldent even give a call
I talked to your new boyfriend hes quite the prick
I hope you get fat and fall
into the endless pits
the endless pits of your own mind.

Nick

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