|Current music:||Toadies - Tyler|
...and everythings ok
hm, well i lied.
so heres what been on my mind all fucking day.. or at least when i got home:
as i was walking down plainfield and getting onto my block, my house started to come into view and i noticed there werent any cars in the driveway and right away i thought "did something happen to my mom?" and just then i realized i always seem to think that whenever i see no cars in the driveway, somehow i automatically assume something wrong and i dont really know why i do that. its become like a reflex.. no cars = trouble. things have been weird lately and ive also realized that ive grown up a lot just in this past month or two. i started taking up a lot more responsibility around the house. usually id just straighten up my room, do my laundry, and clean the bathroom after my mom yells at me for an hour. but just yesterday i cleaned the kitchen, the kitty area (food and litter), did the dishes, cleaned the bathroom, swept and wet jetted the floor. look at me, i was on a roll. no longer is 100% of my life on this thing, its like... 60? im getting there. i try though, first off it kills my eyes.. they're horrible. and 2nd i need to start having a real life... cuz im a loser and i suck and i dont really ever do real work.