| Current mood: |  confused |
| Current music: | american beauty soundtrack |
Captain Mix signals
I can't figure him out, I just can't. First he doesn't say more than two words at me yet does all this wonderful stuff to help me train. Then, he asks me out on a date but after the date it's back to how he treated me before. Next, surprise, I get a wonderful boquet of flowers sent to me, but he acts more surprised that he sent them to me than I was getting them, and returns back to avoiding/ignoring me again. Then, out of nowhere he kisses me down in the library, and I mean really kisses me. I felt such a connection to him then, it was so wonderful, then the rest of the gang arrived which stopped it short. Now he doesn't give me the time of day.
What does he want? What are we? We've been on two dates, we've kissed, yet I can't really say that we're dating. Is he just really shy? Is he unsure of where to go next? Does he have trouble talking to people? I have trouble talking to people, but not this much trouble. He seems to be able to talk with everyone else just fine. If I could just get closer to him. We've only been truly alone once, maybe he'd open up if we had some time alone together. All I'm asking for is a two-way conversation longer than 30 seconds. I'll take the other stuff later.
Now I just want to know who he really is. Is there something about him that he's afraid to show me? Ugh, I wish I wasn't so busy with training and homework and keeping secrets, or I would just try to get up the courage to ask him out with me somewhere. Somewhere private, like out on the river, or watching/listening to movies at my apartment. Heck, if I could just help him with his occult research once in a while. We are just never alone together. I'll have to remedy that, I just don't know how.
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