|Current mood:|| sleepy|
|Current music:||~Get your hands off of my woman mothafucker~~The Darkness..|
Hello journal. Nothing has been happening at all really. It's winter and I don't do a whole lot cept hang out with Dustin at his house and watch movies and things because it's too cold. We've gone on a few roadies though. We went on one today. We ended up just chilling at a parking lot though. Then we went back to his house. Nothing exciting really. I had fun though. I had bought him a record player the other day and it doesn't work right, so now I have to take the stupid thing back. I was so excited about getting it for him too, but it was shit. =( Maybe I can find a good one somewhere. I hope.
Work has been work, like always. Things with Tanya, well, we haven't mentioned anything about the lie since everything happened. I just act like everything is fine. I guess I am sorta over it, maybe. I don't trust her with anything anymore though. I still am a bit afraid to be alone with her, because you never know. I don't trust many people you know. People are scary if you think about it. Like you could never know. I trust a few people though, so I am not unrealistic about it, so I think I am ok. I just trust those who have proven they can be trusted. I never really have trusted Tanya completely, it's just now, there isn't any trust at all. Oh well.
Studying is ok. I still don't do it as much as I should, but I figure I should be done soon enough. As long as I kick myself in the ass to get motivated. Sometimes I think it's unfair that you usually have to have a great education to become successful in life. That is completely bogus because there are plenty of intelligent people out there who could become very successful w/o college. I guess college isn't a bad thing, it's just unreal how much you have to spend, and some of the gay things you have to know that you will never use. Oh well. Life can be retarded sometimes.
Life hasn't been too bad. I am only sick of work and winter pretty much. Winter has got to be the most boring season of them all. I hate it. Snow is pretty, yes, but why does it have to be cold? Oh well.
I'm getting closer to becoming 18. It's kind of scary. I hope I make it ok in life. I just want enough money to survive and not worry about bills, and I want to be happy, and I want someone who I can share the rest of my life with. Dustin may not be it, and he probably isn't. It's ok though, right now our relationship is great and I'm enjoying it while it's here. If he's not the one, he's not the one. We will always be friends, so it is all good. I love him. =)
Oh yeah! Ant-Flag album is great. I love it and I think everyone should get it~
Well, I am sleepy so I must be on my way.