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Sit down, I've got a tale to tell The fight to live goes on, your death I can smell What'd I do to you, what the fuck did I do I don't believe a fucking word How can I listen it's your voice that's slurred It's me your dissing and your back that's turned It's your shit I've learned And my time I've yearned I'm not going to pick through your garbage Fuck that you can't make me No way in hell I'mma let you take me I'mma try like hell not to let you break me In your life I've tried to lead Because of that I grew this seed And everyday I must feed Until it's finished doing it's deed The last you'll hear is this very creed And then I'll begin by smoke'n this weed Suffer, and wonder why I sit and bleed And why my life is still not freed Hide behind a wife, then maybe breed Begin a new birth, someone else you'll plead So my word will you take heed Or just keep going and finally flee It's your choice make it fly Maybe someday you'll look me in the eye I wonder then if I'll possibly comply My brain will continuously multiply These simple thoughts I try to deny In the end my own brain will fry It's already begun, more so until I die I don't think you completely understand How I hate how we follow your command Give in to every demand Here is my mother fucking plan Put myself behind the wheel Until I find the place, I feel I can feel My eyes so wide I look up at you all As I slowly pick up speed and begin to fall And as you stare And watch my gentle glare As I land, softly lying there Now you see that this isn't fair Oh don't do it, don't you fucking dare These thoughts can't begin to compare Look at it, who's soul is really in despair It all beings with a fling of my hair And a quick wiff of the cool dry air Mend the heart that you did tear Rope in hand, pack on back I began my journey right on track My feet walked, my legs picked up slack And my very thoughts, went completely black And on everyone else, I did attack I went deeper with-in the thoughts you lack My body you no longer enslave With all I have, it's you I do blame And I'm no longer a part of your silly game I'm sure in the end I'll die with my fame But I'll lived knowing, my heart you did not tame And it wasn't my face in that fucking frame My life I'd lived once, and always the same Who said you need a spark, to light up a flame Did you hear me yell your stupid fucking name I'll live to die in every ounce of your fucking shame I don't think you completely understand The strength of the situation you have at hand I'll no longer play into your every demand Here is my mother fucking plan Deal the gun - see who gets the deal Until I find the place, I feel I can feel Blood and pain escape my head I finally enter where you fatally dread Just the ever so true words that are said A message from nowhere before my eyes, and this is what it read 20lbs of nothing for 20lbs of lead My mouth fell open, hang'n on by one single thread Wondering now if I'm back in bed Dreaming about something, in the color red Or sleepwalking with the devil on side streets instead They flood as one and reality returns Gawking at all the harm that's been done Memory returns to me, making me one And then I remember how much this isn't fun The thought crosses I am incredibly spun That's okay, believe me, I've only just begun Make everyone think I've become clean But I'll just become harder to be seen I'm coming full force, giving all there is to steam It started in the backyards we all played You'll understand when you see the ending I have safely displayed Your dumb to the same image you had portrayed To dumb to handle me, or are you just too afraid I don't think you fully understand This really isn't what you had planned Completely rejecting your every demand I'm telling you my mother fucking plan Search to internally heal Until I find the place, I feel I can feel I hope I'm there watching every move Calmly doing whatever it is your trying to prove The look you give as If I simply misunderstood I follow you, but please, my own choice if I could Let me decide if I should do what I should When it's done it's my hand I'll lend And then my message I'll begin to send Until I am sure if you are my real friend I can't believe it, now my happiness you try and end When you let go and make it my life to tend Then, maybe then this thing I'll try and mend As you hide and stay ever so blind You don't help me in the least, your face behind the line I can't take it this explodes in my mind If we aren't careful, it'll happen to all mankind Like a fish in the sea, I'm me not confined Like a bird in the air, I'll come back un-refined With this simple state of mind I calmly search until I find With proper gear and a home-stitched style You're set to go, and climb the shit pile My smug sense of maturity And my number one, biggest impurity The ritual began with a strand of hair Now to the point of asking myself, is this really fair I hope to die slow and watched by your eye So you can see the pain and hurt that you did try I'm the same person that many years you did deny Now you accept, the tables turned, you better not pry I'll look you in the face you'll watch as I die And I'll have known no one can stop me, not you, nor I But it makes no sense to me It's easy, yet hard in its vivid simplicity I'll make it known so it's no big mystery Just follow me down, and listen carefully Hold your head high, and speak proudly I am above all this, here on out, I keep confidentially You don't see me at all You see me curled in a ball You sit and enjoy watching me fuck it all That makes you so very, very tall Slowly I get up, and I begin to crawl I ready myself, for yet another glorious fall Post a comment in response: |
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