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can anyone see what I have inside of me I'm open, but I'm so far away from you all if you couldn't understand, why'd you let yourself fall if this was never our world love, needed to stay un-furled but you never kept it closed and I had to be there when you opposed why was it even me that had to do it I wish I was involved in the piece that was hit I watched it fly it flew away from me out of my hands and into your heart but I never mean to tear your life apart I never meant to make you come clean I never meant to make your face un-seen I never meant to make you cry all I wanted, was to make love fly but I don't, and I didn't but neither did you why do we do what we do how could we leave it all behind but I don't even want to feel confined I don't want what you have given me because I don't know what you have given me I have seen it but I call it shit it's foreign to me and it's nothing I can see therefor, that's all it can be a glimpse in some ones eye like the look they give, before they die that's what this was that's what this does it did what we made it do there is no more, of me and you it's ironic, but sad but my heart, I never had it bled, but it bled for you I can't find it but it died along the way but if it was for me it never would have stayed when I find it I won't know what to do because like always I'd just give it to you why is it mine I don't want it, to be mine it can't be mine if I don't accept it I lack silence and when it creeps the sound is over-bearing I'm alive, only when it sleeps red, could only be me but I can see, what it can see and I am, what I am to you I am, everything, and nothing you do I'm drinking this vodka for you and I'm still telling you that I love you or am I just telling myself? because you can do it by yourself I'm hearing it, to dampen my health to my ears, it brings joy, and wealth the sky goes cold, and winter turns stealth and blood is given, for the entire commonwealth how can I twist it to make it make sense the pictured home, with a white picket-fence this isn't what you expected but inside your mind, I slowly detected the sense of security, and the sense of love and the sense of someone, who seemed so far above the rest that was there but I was just left to compare I'm compared to my heart and I'm compared to tear you apart but this is me, and I'm comparable to no one I wish you could see me I wish you knew how I think because I can't explain, it just makes it shrink the level is low and the water doesn't flow it's dry, withered, and away but someone, begged it to stay only few, recognize it's beauty but it's not to stay in a place that's just to decay and a world that isn't here for me and to a hatred, that's all I can see and yet, I wish I was like you I wish I could be you and I wish I couldn't be me but I know that isn't the way it works but I don't want it to work that way I just want, what I want and I'll do, what I do and I'll sit, and never mean a thing to you but with all that I have.. I'm going to strive to mean nothing to you .. or to anyone the sharpness, of the way I felt blurred, the thoughts I have, to things I've dealt I'm blind.. and I knew I was blind, I said I was blind as I'm circling the parking lot in both my two feet and thinking in my mind a love like yours, I hope to never meet face to face, or ever again I can't go through what I've went through I'm down, to being a whiney bitch and it's on me like a seven year fucking itch and when I think about it piss's me off it makes me wonder how I could ever be so soft and how I could ever be so pure and stuck in a place, that was never so sure and thought I believed you were the cure but then I did, what I had to endure so I'm never turning back again I'm never going to be your stain your scar, or who you are be the one, or your shining star what you could do, could never go this far doubt everything you do, from stepping out of your car your dusted in poison, and lined with tar blackened to yourself and committed to us all the structure is gone, but you took the fall... but you took the fall, and you can't give it back you did something, that you can never re-stack you can't change it, but I wish I could I wish I could do something, that you think I should but I can't.... .. I wish, I could just turn you off Post a comment in response: |
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