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Emotional Rollercoaster
You wouldn't believe the two weeks I have gone through. Well da Jamacian punk's birthday came up and I went to my bestest friend in the whole world, My Mother, to see if she could help me out with gettin' the present. I decided that I wanted to just get the gamecube he wanted and knocked two birds down with one stone which would be Christmas and his birthday. I mean I thought shit was cool Mom Dukes finally knew from me that me and Tony were together and I went over there with her knowledge of it I thought that shit was finally good. Well Tony like I thought was completely surprised and overwhelmed by the present and I felt good about what I did. When I got home from chilling with him and Ralph for his birthday my mom was acting kinda funny but I thought nothing of it. Well I ended up gettin' off the phone early with Tony just for the simple fact that she was wylin' so I was pretty much done. I was coolin' in my room in dark listenin' to some slow jams on 105 I mean I was pretty much set to go to sleep so I knew in a min I would've been out. Finally when I drifted off I heard my door open and I woke up but I was plannin on going back to sleep, but My vistor had other plans. My mother decided that she needed to talk to me about Tony and told me that she thinks 100 dollars is too much and what kind of person is he for takin' it yaddah yaddah yaddah and I was pretty much pissed the fuck off by then so I was like I'll talk to you tomorrow! She wasn't satisfied but she bounced. Now I couldn't fall asleep and I was cranky and aggravated so I was pretty much hurt. The next day I just stuck to my usual silent treatment and she was making shit seem like we were cool. She got the car back so we went to go see my grandmother and I couldn't exactly refuse because I haven't see my grandma in madd long so I packed up and went along we were still chillin I mean not much words in exchange. After we leave D's house after I had made her stop thats when she decided she wanted to talk. I couldn't even believe she was bringing the situation up again I mean what is done is done I can't take the gift back and I'm satisfied with my actions I knew of the consequences. She went on a rampage how Tony shouldn't have taken it, I can't let him keep it, what is he doing for me that is worth 100 dollars, and how I knew Regine and Shivon and even HER for so long and I never ever bought any of them a present worth 100 dollars. I mean when I tell you I was hurt you have to believe me never in a million years would have I ever thought to hear those words from my mother. She would be the last person I ever expect to have a problem with what I give her. I was done listening her and so that was a done deal. We spent a good minute not talking so now on Mon night my sista calls me and ask me if I know why my motha has to talk to her so badly and I was like nah. Then Tuesday afternoon I found a message on my answer machine from my sista tellin me she was gonna kick my ass and she'll talk to me lata. That night she came through but that was the same night as festival of lights and she told me how my motha told her that I asked her ( my motha) for a 100 dollars to buy regine and shivon's present and I took it and spent it all on "SOME BOY" I was like what bullshit! I was so mad that my mother would make up such a big lie. Not to mention she was neva talkin to my sista like that and then all of sudden there best friends I was like wuteva. My sista told me not to worry about it but I really wanted to just give my mother the money and be done with. That night when I had got in the car my motha was back to being nice to me I guess she saw I was real mad. Now we're pretty much cool she ain't bring up the situation again. I had numerous of offers to give me the money from D and Tony but I don't want either of them to give me the money especially not Tony cause then I'll feel like he's paying for something thats suppose to be for him. It's wuteva i still plan on payin her though as soon as I get out of debt with the world. Now we're movin and that adds on to the stress and so just need a big vacation it 's crazy. Tony makes me sad cause he seems like this is gonna change everything and I'm just hoping my mother opens up and he could come over and we could have movie nights and stuff. Well Let me get off I'm on my vacation but yet find myself babysitting I'll talk to you later.
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