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i think i am happy, today was fusterating and then over happy ness--
first the whole school pissed me RIGHT THE FUCK OFF- screaming annoying little kids saying "your mom" n putting gluesticks in hair and then went hoe did some homework mom brought me to Mr sub! and i told her i am depressed and i have so many problems and they arnt like "He stole my pencil" or "he broke my heart" its suicide, sex,drugs, abusement. anyways i ate my salad and subs and went home, i guess my mom told my dad i was sad because he came up with his guitar and started siging me a song he wrote when i was little" alayna rae changes every day --- theres been a change in her walk -- " yeah u get the picture- and then i ignored him more and hes like "dont like that ? how bout i rap?? " and you get that picture too. and he started singing a lullaby he wrote when iwas little. a lullaby he said he would only use when I was sad when im older, he never sang it to me before and he wrote it when i was little... and then he saw somethingi was doing on the comp with my pics and hes says " your absoulutly gorgous, i mean look at you.. god alayna " and im like offt whatever and closed it. and then heslkie i dont know why you hate me and im like you dont even know me and hes like i think i know someone itake to minneapolis and tim hortons yesterday and im like you dont even know my life. and hes like i know what happend last year was bad and im like ITS NOT EVEN ANYTHING TO DO WITH SCHOOL (fuck) and then he went and i stayed on the comp waiting for matt, who didnt come on adn then american idol came on... so i ALWAYS watch it with my dad, 3 girls were good and theni asked him if we could go for a ride to marina park after american and hes lik e OK and we went soon after and....we drvove around for a bit.... and we went out for a little view of the beautiful frozen -covered-p-with-snow lake and i saw 2 Foxes. my dad always spots animals and i asw thmf or the first time in my life. (by my own eyes, like ive seen them in real and stuff ) but it had a den and babies.... and i just smiled. i dont know why.. .and my dads like.. omg alayna... thats a omen. a omen from god i swear toyou , no foxes livce out in the sity (none do) and i just wasl ike :| and then i raced my dog and stufff and then the lake was so beautiful ( i want to take matt there.... one day.. when he loves me ) i couldnt stop thinking about him........ and then we drove around then i saw the fox right at the side, he was up at my head kinda like on a snowbank and he looked right in y eyes, he had tha kindest eyes and they were kindof black and my dad said he didnt have rabies, and i almost cried.... it looked like one of my friends that died last year.......or jsut a good omen... after 5 MINUTES it went.... and my dads like keep that in your mind forever.. and hopefully i will.. i hope i will... and we got home and he hugged me on the sidewalk before the door and whispered in my ear "Life is beautiful, so are you" "I love you" and i just kinda cried and then i touched the door handle and MATT got me on my cell.... i couldnt gbelieve it everything worked out... and i t could have been fate matt i swear.. . but now i gotta go... ttyl...
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