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From : Mike Sent : February 25, 2004 5:52:42 AM To : alayna Subject : RE: i know i am...im sorry. ya no point in appologizin. but i needed to think. and i guess u wanna know the answer to ur question. i want u. i know im a jerk....i know im a pussy....i know i dont deserve it.....but i cant help it. and now look wut i got myself into. i wont b able to b on until like friday and i wanna tell u so much its not even funny. those words hurt so much "i dislike u". i mean....it may seem like nothin to u.....but this isnt the only good thing i through away. i do it to every fuckin good thing i ever had. i cant help how i am. i try.....i try so hard. u wanna know how pathetic i am? theres somethin i wanna ask u so bad....and the question is so absurd that i almost laughed at myself. theres a billion reasons why not to.....but i dunno. nvm...its way way out of the way. it hurts so much. knowin that want i wanted all the fuckin time was right here. i dont blame u. not one bit. but i remember......u.....for the first time actually like myself. it wuz a strange feelin....but wonderful. now i just cant.....forget it. i wouldnt blame u if u just delete this messege before u read it. im just gonna go. but plz......just.....i dunno. if theres neway in the world u can somehow forgive me even one bit......fuck it im askin for the impossible ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- my email: okay what the fuck do you want from me, you dont even know what you want in the first place, i cant make you "non confused, and happy" you gotta fuckin take it from your heart, dont worry about me just tell me what the fuck you want, before you go spazzing on people focus on what you want okay... its good advice for a lifetime so rememeber it. Focus on not being such a jerk, and see how other people feel for a change. Change your mind so you know what your saying before you talk, I don't want you to say I love you to me anymore before you fucking change yourself. I need someone There for me 100% and your not ok. i dont mean coming online at good times but i mean you cant just fucking go off when your the one i need most, you cant run away from your problems your whole life. WHOLE LIFE. "Theres things in this world you cant stop, but its no reason to shut out the world" Did you also know that theres about 80 guys that like me and 20 love me , 20 actually love me, and you were the closest out of all of them, you know how bad that is of letting you walk all over me. You love another chick and I can't beleive I didnt care, and I just wanted you, I didnt care how many people you loved, but I realized it's impossible to fucking make you see how much it was hurting me, how much you didnt care. I told my life to you, I told things that hurt me most, I told you I wont keep it in anymore, and you told me you love Steph. Right after you told me you loved me, its just fucking hurts ok Matt. Otherwise I don't know what your saying to me, everything must be a lie. Im sick of your lies because you dont know what you want or need. Matt.. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Post a comment in response: |
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