|Current mood:|| depressed|
|Current music:||Twisted Individual Live 10/18/03|
I hate Wednesdays... and Thurs. - Tues.
The past week or two has been the worst i've experienced in a long time. Even worse when I should of died in the car crash early in March. I dont know man, i'm just so sick of everything. I'm not suicidal, but I dont feel like living. I dont like anything in my life. I hate sounding like a whiney bitch but it's all true. Nothings going anywhere. I keep telling myself everything will change when I turn 18, more opportunities will come up for me. But the way my life story has been going, it's very unlikely to happen.
I'm so tierd of sounding down. No matter what I do to try to change things for myself, shit only gets worse. I've hit rock bottom. There was one point in my life when I looked at everything and was just so happy for no reason. Well, there was a reason, but I just always felt good, and I miss that. I mean sure I had to face some down times to enjoy the ups, but thats how everything in life is. No matter what you want to get, theres always sacrifices you must make in order to make it work. I guess to some sacrifices werent worth the trouble. Shut up Adam, grow up. Right? Whatever, I hate this, I cant control anything. It seems like i'm the only one who seems to care. Thats a real shitty feeling.