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It's been a while
So I'm taking the time to update because I have to write my newspaper articles and my mind is on the blink. So here I am! Jen, Katy and I went into the city on Saturday, and we saw Dirty Rotten Scoundrels and it was funny. Norbert really made that show though. He was absolutely hilarious. We went to the Olive Garden and it was so good.
So I've noticed that when I'm stressed I eat like crazy. All I can think about is food. I mentioned the Olive Garden and I wanted to drool everywhere.
I think I just want for school to be over. I have a paper to write and I have no motivation to do it. There's just so many other things that I would rather be doing. I'm so worried about next year now. Every time I think about it I want to just flip out. Lang is not going to give me a lot of financial aid, and then I'm going to be stuck at Stonybrook and I'm going to hate every second of it.
I really think that if I don't get into Lang, I'm going to reapply for the spring. But then I'm concerned about how I'm going to get all of the recommendations and all of that bullshit. I'm a nervous wreck about that. I read Estelle's essay the other night and I wanted to freak out because mine was definitely not that good. I didn't spend too much time on it, and I sent my application at 1AM. I didn't take it too seriously because I didn't face the fact that it's my future, that I;m not going to be here next year. Like I really don't believe that I;m going to get in. And then I will cry because then i'll be stuck at Stonybrook and working at Gap.
Anyway, I started writing my script for screenwriting and it's going well. I know that I will want to change everything, but it's a start. but I know that I was meant to do this. I'm never as happy than when I'm writing dialogue. It's elating.
Anyway, I need to get back to writing... newspaper articles. I'm so not in the mood.