|Current mood:|| depressed|
|Current music:||Twiztid- "I Fall Apart"|
In many ways, my happiness from earlier somehow was killed. God why are night-times so hard for me? Well after talkin to Scudder i suddenly realized that friends don't last forever, all they do is stab u in tha back. I'm so lonely.. suicide seems really nice right about now. I have nothing to live for; everyone obviously hates me, n i'm nothing more than a bitchy ass control freek. I cant keep letting my emotions bottle up inside of me, if i'm not careful then i'll eventually end up exploding again. I need the comfort of someone who i can love, n they'll love me back as well. Neil is moving to Ohio, Scudder is a totally asshole, n well yea.. here i am all alone. I hate it when i like people, it always ends up as somewhat of a dissapointment. Oh well, fuck people.
Anyways sorry guys, no one likes to hear me bitching so i guess i'm off to smoke a cancer stick to try to somewhut ease my depression, but i'll leave u wit some of my fav. lyrics..
= Twiztid- "I Fall Apart" =
I swallow razor bladez and spit up blood
Cut out my heart and gave it to my love
I hung myself with an extension cord
And dangled high above the Quija board
I heard the wind through the treez and it made me scream
I'm wonderin if itz real life or just another dream
I need something...someone
To help me with my brain because itz falling apart
I fall apart