|Current mood:|| gloomy|
More ranting and self-loathing
Maybe it's just me. I don't know, but I tell everyone that their opinions don't mean anything to me. But in all actuality it means everything to me. I care so much. I hate it when people don't like me, I hate it when people make me look/feel dumb. I hate feeling insignificant. and i also think that when i think this and when i spent alot of waking hours trying to fix myself i make this feeling of insignificance alot worse. I also have came to the conclusion that i feel bad about myself, but also that i'm supposed to. I mean, truly there is one person in this world that actually cares about me. Yeah i know my parents do, and possibly some.... SOME of my friends. but really I am the only one that cares fully about me.... but thats only because i am completely self involved. God i am in a terrible mood. If anyone... anyone looks at this comment... or something. I dont care who you are i just want to know if anyone looks at this. heh.. i am one sad, sad human being....