Matt Lovato (mlovato) wrote, @ 2003-07-26 07:30:00

-Slowly, he blinked awake and turned to lay down facing the other side when he was aware of an arm draped around his stomach and a series of soft breaths fanning against the skin of his neck. he turned his gaze over to his side and found himself staring into Jessica's sleeping face, her eyelashes pressed softly against her cheek as she breathed slowly and evenly against his neck, her head resting against the crook of his shoulder. He moved just slightly, as so not to wake her and carefully slid out of her arms. He stopped moving as she restlessly shifted in her sleep and crawled out of his bunk, pulling the covers up to her shoulders as he walked off towards the back where he had left his laptop on the table the night before. He logged on quickly, absently scratching his arm as he waited for his update-page to load.-

Fuck. It's early. I can't believe I'm up. I don't know much about what's been happening. After my last update, I pretty much tuned everything else out and concentrated on the things that I could see and take control of. The band. The music. Jessica. Not that I could take control of her. But at least she's something, or someone rather that could keep me sane and keep my feet planted onto the ground. It's funny how the last person you could never imagine being with becomes the person you can't imagine being without. Even for the short amount of time I've been with her, she's stuck with me through the crazy things that have been going on.

From the first moment we met, I guess we kind of just clicked and I didn't even really think about it much until well, it happened. And then I found myself in a confusing but yet familiar spot. But even after I cleared myself and I allowed myself to just be with her, there were still hurdles to jump over. And she kind of just took my hand and helped my climb over them. It surprised me how easy it came being romantic and sappy with her. I was never like that. Ever. In a way, it disappointed me that I couldn't be that way with someone when I was with her, but at the same time, it didn't. It's a completely new side of me that I've just discovered and I'm not sure I want to go back to how I was before.

I guess you could say, Jessica brought out the side of me that I didn't think was there, let alone even exist. Even the way I'm talking right now. When was the last time I talked this way about anyone? Try, never. I guess she makes me want to change. For the better. Makes me want to stop the stupid shit I'm doing and do my best at the things I'm good at instead of just standing there being completely shits and giggles like I usually am.

Jessica's about to wake up so I'll stop where I am right now and see what she wants to eat for breakfast. Peace.

-He hit update and stood up, shivering a little in the morning cold and headed back over to his bunk where he could see her rolling over in bed, rubbing the sleep from her eyes. He sat down besides her and watched as she struggled to wake herself up more, smirking slightly.-

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