|Current mood:|| determined|
|Current music:||Take Me Away from Freaky Friday|
FUCKING HELL I hate how I feel sometimes WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY?! Can anyone answer me Please!?! I mean, I hate feeling like I mean nothing to the people that mean the world to me, but why - why me, why do I get to feel this way, why am I so easy to just throw aside or use!??!?!
I FEEL LIKE SHIT.
So apparently N and V have been talking and may get back together.
What, am I not good enough in his eyes!?!?
She made him MISERABLE!
And I'm pretty damned sure I could make him happier than she.
I HATE that I gave up my whole week last week because Z was home, and it didn't even matter that I had asked him to spend time with me.
I hate how I constantly think of N and R as great friends, but then they never return my calls. I fucking miss them. WHY do I miss people that don't have time for me?!?!
WHY CAN'T I FIND SOMEONE TO MAKE TIME FOR ME, LIKE I MAKE TIME FOR EVERYONE ELSE!??! HUH!??!?! IS THAT SO WRONG, ASKING FOR A LITTLE TIME, MORE THAN 5 MINUTES?! I'M NOT ASKING FOR ETERNITY, BITCHES!
I love them all, but they're still motherfuckers.
CAN SOMEONE TELL ME HOW NOT TO BE NICE?! PLEASE?! BECAUSE I NEED LESSONS!
I Hate this. You'd think that things would be different...but they're not.
Well fuck them. I don't need anyone. Who cares what I want? Apparently no one. Oh well. I can deal just fine on my own. Bastards.
Wow. Don't click that unless you want to experience a LOT of bad language and ventation. I feel a little better, but I still want to break something...or set a 10ft bonfire...~shrug~