Hooker meatloaf
I have not much to say except that I don't see how this week is going to resolve. I have exam upon exam upon exam. There is not enough time for me to study, but still i'm procrastinating and not freaking out. HOW? who the fuck knows. maybe it's because i'm more secure this time around. maybe it's because I can distract myself with play things while still staying out of the pen. It's driving my motivation I guess. OR maybe it's b/c I haven't smoked weed in almost 2 months. Crazy, right?
So I made a list and without checking twice, I'd say it confirms my ego. Isn't it funny the way the game goes. I don't give a fuck about you and you spill your guts on my shoes. Still, at the moment my love is thousands of miles away and I don't really care to start anything on the home front. Still, making out with Nick on Halloween was pretty nice. Especially since I passed out and puked before making out with him. (Hahaha, bet he loved the way I taste.) Got me thinking, when I never considered it before, he could make a pretty fine lover. There are just two requirements - that he like to eat pussy and his dick is not microscopic. But that's just my hormones talking. I doubt I like him and I'll just use him as a fantasy when I need one.
Still, there is another mister on the horizon. He's older, established, kind, and well rounded. He's also offered to take me into the bone marrow transplant lab where he works. How. Fucking. Sexy. is that?! Dead - fucking -sexy I say. Dead. Motherfucking. Sexy. And he's a musician. But...i feel like I need to play nice with this one. Not the way I feel like I have to be nice to Nick out of obligation and social lubricant, but I actually feel like Jeremy deserves my kindness.
Who fucking knows? I can't make up my mind on who to be with so I'm with nobody. Nobody's going to get shit out of me until they can prove they're not dogs. Otherwise, I'll just eat them whole and made them wish they never loved women.
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