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I Need A New Life.....
I woke up this morning to an empty house
I was glad that my mother wasn't there
But I wished that I wasn't so alone
My mother and I had a big argument this morning
She was so depressed
She ran out of the house
And she didn't tell me where she was going
I wish I could do that
Part 1:
What?s the time/date now? around one, march 20
What is your name? jessica
Gender: no stick
Gay/Straight/Bi? straight
Single? Want to be? Yes, not really.
Your age: 14
Age you act: *shrug* 14?
Age you wish you were: 21+
Your height: not too tall, not too short
Eye color: chocolate
Hair color: chocolate
Left/right/ambidextrous? right
Your living arrangement? pergatory
Piercings/Tattoos? one piercing on each ear lobe, more to come tee hee
Do you speak another language? da
Favorite Quote? I have two: "We accept the love we think we deserve" and "If it doesn't kill you, it makes you stronger."
Part 2:
Do you have any secrets? sorta
Do you hate yourself? definitely
Do you have any bad habits? too many
Are we governed by free will or fate? *shrug*
What is the compliment you get most from people? No one really complements me, if i get any complements, its usually about my clothes or soemthing. Well, people do say I'm creative, but this is a world where creativity doesn't get you very far.
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? Through Thin Walls
If a movie was made about your life, who would play you? some ugly chick
What?s your biggest fear? being normal, being alone
Are you a loner? not really, sometimes
What are your #1 priorities in life? myself and those closest to me
If you were another person, would you be friends with you? i dont know
Are you a daredevil? i'm kinda in between. i'm not a wimp, but i know whats too much.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? just one?
How do you vent? constantly
Do you think life has been good so far? as Liz puts it, better than those emo fuckers but not as bad as those ppl who are like being raped and beaten by their parents or something
What do you like the most about your body? I generally dont like anything about my body, but i like my toes and fingers. i just wish my hands and feet were smaller though.
And least? everything else i havent mentioned
Do you think you are good looking? no, i'm ugly, and you know it. and if its true, that i'm not ugly, i'm not pretty.
Are you confident? no
Do people know how you feel? i dont know
Part 3:
Have you ever...
Hurt yourself? on purpose? yes. not on purpose? all the time
Been out of the country? frequently
Eaten something that made other people sick? not that i know of o.o;;
Been unfaithful? no comment
Been in love? no comment
Done drugs? no
Gone skinny dipping? heheheheh.....no comment.
Had a medical emergency? yes
Had a surgery? too many times.....and theres more to come, too...
Ran away from home? yes
Played strip poker? not yet
Gotten beaten up? not physically
Beaten someone up? well, if you count how often i punch and poke andy's tummy, and well, other ppl's tummy too, then yeah.
Been picked on? how can i not get picked on with a last name like "sfintu"? how can i not get picked on by being "creative"?
Been on stage? yes, loved it.
Slept outdoors? yes, loved it, minus the bugs
Pulled an all- nighter? yes, loved it
Gone one day without food? not recently...
Talked on the phone all night? nah
Slept all day? nah
Thought you?re going crazy? no comment.
Been betrayed? *shrugs*
Had a dream that came true? well, the events dont really come true, but when i dream, i dream of places i've never been, and then i go to those places a few weeks later or something. like once i dreamed i was in this football stadium and then some weird stuff happened and a few weeks later, i went to that very same stadium for the chs vs shs football game
Broken the law? yes
Met a famous person? almost *shoots self in face*
Tied someone up/been tied up? yes, i've been tied up, it wasnt fun. i was babysitting.
Told a secret you swore you wouldn?t tell? these days, people really dont tell me many secrets. i'm too loud....
Stolen anything? yes
Been on radio/TV? yes
Been in a mosh-pit? heheh yes
Had a nervous breakdown? yes
Bungee jumped? not yet
Part 4:
Beliefs...
Life on other planets? i dont really care, and i dont think i will unless they come and like, attack us or something
Miracles? *shrug*
Astrology? nah, but they're fun
Magic? *shrug*
God? .....
Satan? oh, you mean Dr. Lynch?
Angels? "trust in my self rightious suicide, i cry when angels deserve to die"
Afterlife? *shrug*
Santa? nah
Ghosts? yes
Luck? *shrug*
Love? yes, definitely.
Love at first sight? i wouldnt know, its never happened to me
Witches? *shrug*
Believe it?s possible to remain faithful forever? i dont know
Part 5:
Friends
Who is your best friend? i guess amy and bianka would be my two closest friends, but then there are some other people who i really really cherish, but they've got other people and dont relaly care to get any closer to me, i tend to scare ppl off
Who?s the one person that knows most about you? ....irunno.
What?s the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? no one gave it to me specifically, but i've taken good advice that was publicized
Thing you?re picked on most about? um, i tend to stumble on words a lot
Last person you talked to online? Hugo and Michelle
Who do you talk to most online? emily and michelle
Who are you on the phone with most? eric
Who do you trust most? i dont trust anyone, but then i do trust everyone. i have an issue with trust, i dont know what to do with it.
Who listens to your problems? people listen, people say they care, but do they really?
Who do you fight most with? my mom
Do you always feel understood? not really
Part 6:
Last time you...
Smiled? ......its been a while.
Laughed? its been a while
Cried? wednesday
Bought something? last weekend
Danced? last weekend
Were sarcastic? *shrug*
Kissed someone? um, i kissed alicia on the lips on the bus going to festival, but it was a friends thing, its been a while since i've kissed someone and meant it.
Talked to an ex? erriiiiic! where are you!
Watched your favorite movie? its been a while
Had a nightmare? i dont really have nightmares. i have bad dreams, where i go places without shoes (oh the horror! it really does suck....and scare me.....)
Talked on the phone? its been a while
Listened to the radio? this morning
Watched TV? this morning
Went out? Last weekend
Helped someone? *shrug*
Were mean? um, i was probably mean and didnt know it, but i was really relaly mean to michael in band yesterday
Sang? this morning
Saw a movie? this morning
Said "I love you"? its been a while. theres a certain person that i want to say it to, but i don't know how this person would react.
Missed someone? all the time
Fought with a family member? this morning
Fought with a friend? maybe not fighting, but i've been in hostile situations with them recently
Had a serious conversation? its been a while
Smoked weed? never
Got drunk? .....
Last book you read: excel saga volume one
Last movie you saw: part of wayne's world
Last song you heard: By The Way
Last thing you had to drink: pink lemonade
Last time you showered: yesterday morning (i'm still in pj's)
Last thing you ate: lunch: chicken, salad, white rice
Last CD you bought: ace of base
Last thing you bought: food at lunch
Part 7:
Right now...
What are you wearing right now? my pj's: a navy baggy USA shirt with a hole in the armpit, black socks, my arm socks with the red arm band, white bra, white undies, red and pink and white and blue plaid pajama pants
What are you worried about right now? what am i going to do today?
What book are you reading? A Connecticut Yankee in King Arthur?s Court
What's on your mouse pad? tweetie and lots of scribbles
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: bored, full, shitty, dirty, impatient
Are you bored? yes
Are you tired? not really
Are you talking to anyone online? kinda, no one's responding
Are you talking to anyone on the phone? no
Are you lonely or content? lonely
Are you listening to music? yes
What time is it right now? around two-ish (i'm not slow, i just ate lunch in between)
i should relaly take a shower
i will when i'm done with this update
i really needed to talk to eric last night
but i was afraid to call him
because he might still be grounded
i searched every inch of this house for candles
no such luck
i need a new picture for blurty
but i dont know what to use
i could draw one on paint
but they always come out horrible
>.<
w/e, i guess i'll post this and take a shower
ta-ta
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