Life is Hard
Days are long and tiring, especially when you're pregnant. I have been having a difficult time coming to terms with the fact that I am pregnant with my second child. I really didn't plan on having another baby, especially with all the drama I have in my life. Besides I don't want to ever make my firstborn feel as if he's not important or that his mama is abandoning him for the new baby. As a little girl I always felt that I wasn't loved or wanted because my mom always put my siblings ahead of me. I made a vow a long time ago that I would always make sure my baby felt loved and cherished by me. Somehow I feel like he won't feel like that if I am busy trying to take care of a newborn. I hope to God that he will know how unbelievably loved and important he is to me and my life. I just want my life to be okay, to be happy and in peace. But with the way my luck is I doubt that will ever happen for me or my family. I don't know what the future will hold for us but knowing the Government it probably will be bad. And I hope those involved in making our life miserable will all rot in hell.