| Current mood: | emotionally drained |
| Current music: | the postal service |
and it'll be just like you were never gone
Ugh, I'm so tired right now. I just spent about two hours crying. There's only one person who can make me hurt so bad that I cry and cry until there's absolutely nothing left. My mother. I don't even know what to do anymore. Or if I even want to do anything anymore about our relationship..lack of relationship. My eyes hurt, and I just want to sleep.
But...I don't want this to be the end. Oh well...I think it really is. This isn't normal; it isn't supposed to be this way. I feel like I have to work at it to recieve her love. I don't know if it's me, or if it's her, us both. If you couldn't already tell, I don't like talking about this kind of thing. That's why I'm not too much with the details. It just feels like I'm drowning in my stupid, little need to have her love me.
I was supposed to go up and see Brian tonight, I think. But looks like that's not going to happen. I don't know what kind of company I would be. It probably would do me good to get out and be with people that aren't my mom, but...
I just want to sleep. I want to go to sleep, and wake up where everything's okay.
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