| Current mood: |  touched |
| Current music: | Bright Eyes- Katie Come True |
goodbye sunshine, i've put you out again..
well im not sure what im doing up so late, in fact i don't believe i'm truly awake. everything seems so perfect lately, nick is wonderful and so are my friends. thanksgiving wasn't that special, but it served it's t-givin purpose.
I'm not even tired..it's like im just thinking about everything and anything and how i miss some things.
i had a real nice heart to heart with josh tonight (yes ktb grandpa).. we talked about sex and how care free people are with it anymore, i'm not sure if i'll ever understand why people have so many partners... i'm certainly not in any place to judge, i just know i wanna wait until marriage and when i find that numero uno person. i don't think i've ever been in love, i kind of think i'm afraid of it. i watch all of these people around me engaging in something so beautiful, and i've got something beautiful too, i just don't worry about where it's going.. i think it's because i don't care. i tend to not care a lot. katie and i kind of got into a lil fighty mcfight wednesday but it was pointless.. not worth marking down as a tiff.. i love you katie, you know that. for god's sake i have a whole song about you. Bff you fucker. ;) so i've been hanging out with lacy A LOT lately and i love it. she's such an awesome person. She survived that accident for a reason and she's truly making me appreciate my life. she's so strong... ILU. i want to be strong, i am i am. I believe i am..... i swear i am. im like a brick house, just try and tear me down. That's why i get scared when i think about not playing volleyball next year or not having something im so familiar with. I love change, but when one woman had the power to make me so nauseated/depressed/sad/hurt.. that's when you know it's time to let go and make yourself happy. What a feeling i used to get when i stepped out onto that court in my new kicks and spandex (yes it's okay to sniggle at that) .. simple things make it all worth while.. i hope i never forget that... i love making people smile...
so smile on lil buddy.. and have a good one two three four... whatever .... i wish i could keep my eyes open long enough to catch the sun creeping over the bare trees, but i won't.. i'm so tired.. good night and good morning
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Girl behind the screen, the movie I seem to see is hardly there.
The glass contacts in my eyes make it hard to focus.
When you step out on the floor, your dress is swaying in the piano.
The fabric of your invisible body is being sewn with music.
Katie, will you come true for me? Come by sometime when I'm awake?
Everyone else just lies to me; yeah they say you're a dream.
Will you step into the light from the screen so that I can make out your shape?
You don't need to tell me anything, because I know what you mean.
Girl, up in the window. Let the air and the music inside your room.
Turn off the TV, stretch your body as far as it goes.
The plants you nurtured are beaming and growing in gratitude.
The ones forgotten have withered and they're black as coal.
Katie, will you come true for me? Come by sometime when I'm awake?
Everyone else just lies to me; yeah they say you're a dream.
Will you step into the light from the screen so that I can make out your shape?
You don't need to tell me anything, because I know what you mean.
The rain shall come, and corpses become roses.
There's a hidden beauty finding it's way out of everything.
Katie, will you come true for me? Come by sometime when I'm awake?
Everyone else just lies to me; yeah they say you're a dream.
Will you step into the light from the screen so that I can make out your shape?
You don't need to tell me anything, because I know what you mean.
Just hold your tongue. Don't be so quick to curse them.
There's a hidden beauty finding it's way out of everyone.
Katie, will you come true for me? Come by sometime when I'm awake?
Everyone else just lies to me; yeah they say you're a dream.
Will you step into the light from the screen so that I can make out your shape?
You don't need to tell me anything, because I know what you mean.
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