| Current mood: |  angry |
HATE
i hate people...i really do...all of them are a worthless lot. arg..thats all i have to say. just arg. i dont think ill ever have a normal relationship. my father still pretty much hates me, my mother tolerates me. i hate my life and everything thats around me. if i wasnt such a fucking pussy, id kill myself, but im too scared. ive always been scared of shit my entire life. im afraid that if i dont do it right this time, ill have to explain myself to my parents and doctors and shit and i dont wanna do that at all. im just hating everything, myself probably the most, but thats besides the point. nothing really matters. so then why do i still care? i do not know, but i seem to have some caring in me left. i HATE caring. i want to be apathetic, to not give a fuck, but noooooooo thats too much to ask for. boo hoo, time to cry and feel sorry for meself. no screw that im gonna go and masturbate now. maybe thatll make me feel better...doubt it though
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