Don't get your hopes up kid.
Hope is dangerous. If you hope for something and it never materializes you're left with a sense of loss, emptiness, and pain. So is it better to just not hope for many things? I mean, that way you're less likely to be let down all the time. That girl is demolishing me. She doesn't even know it, and I'll never tell her because she wouldn't have any of it. She'd say, 'You lost me, you screwed up, just get over it.' She's partially correct in her assessment. I did screw up. But she's not one for compassion, not even for someone she once loved. I, on the other hand, have loads of it and give it to all those willing to receive it. If she ever decided to give me another shot, I'm absolutely certain things would be different (in the best of ways). She doesn't necessarily believe things would be. And she's much too proud to consider opening herself up again, only to be let down a second time. She's selectively protective of her feelings.