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My only goal out of high school, in the early ‘90s, to become a commercial illustrator. I did not think about what would happen if I didn’t accomplish that goal. After dropping out of, not one but two, colleges I used the excuse “I’m not a good student”. Which, was not a false statement, I wasn’t. But, a more accurate statement would have been “I wasn’t an informed student. “ With the glorious age of 31, so quickly approaching... I’ve been thinking; has my life truly been wasted? I now feel more like an adult then ever. With the recent purchase of a house, talking to my boyfriend about “what if we get the chance to marry”, kids, finances, taxes, politics, all the subjects that I felt weren’t subjects ten years ago and that would have wasted my time when I was fresh out of high school. With that new perspective of the world, which I gripped so tightly, I didn’t have time to think about anything else... just me. Now, with my recent “financial accomplishments” (which I can’t take the credit for the majority of), still has the question been answered. Has my life been wasted? Now, with technology changing, emerging, becoming so ingrained into everything we do or who we are, people should be more informed. But, another question; Is ignorance bliss? I don’t think it could be bliss, but it could very well be easier. Easier in the sense that if we don’t know, how can it be our fault? That was the case with me in 1991 graduating high school. Even now, I have employees insinuate it’s not their fault when something might not go as planned, because they did not know. When I first became a manager, I took that failure solely as mine, after many years of doing performance reviews, I don’t internalize such statements anymore. Those are the people who only get “meets expectations”., or even worse a “needs improvement”. I personally don’t want to only get a 2% raise, especially out of life. I would rather get an “exceeds expectations”. Much bigger raise. Self taught insight is much more rewarding than, hand holding education. This is not to say, that everything I know, I sought out myself. I had help with what I know. Shown the tools to achieve a great deal. (a G4 iBook, is a pretty good tool) I had some wonderful mentors in my jobs, and in my life. My boyfriend is a huge part of my success. Without him, I would not have the courage, or ambition to start down the path of going back to school,in the Spring. Starting the process of going into a Nursing program at a local college, also would not be an obtainable goal in my head. I don’t regret any of my experiences, some more chaotic than others. Which is a whole new entry altogether. But, I wish I would have been more aware of my community, the world, and me. So, back to the question... I guess not. Post a comment in response: |
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