|Current music:||Shiina Ringo - Tsumi to Batsu|
I took my senior portraits today. I feel ugly...yet at the same time I somehow feel strangely pretty. I didn't like the pictures at all myself, but my mom and the lady who took them said that they came out really cute and pretty and stuff, and then when we were done we went to my uncle's restaurant to eat and my mom showed my aunt the little black and white printouts of our order and stuff and she said they were really pretty too and then she like went over to another part of the restaurant and showed them to the uncle of the girl who became Miss Virginia and when she came back to our table she said that he said that I was beautiful and could enter a Miss Virginia thing. o.o; I honestly must say I was really surprised. I feel weird about it and really flattered, but somewhat unworthy because there are so many girls out there that are even in my fucking school who are much much MUCH prettier than me and stuff. x_X I feel weird about it. I mean, I have high self confidence in my appearance when it comes to reality and webcam photos, but in the world of real photos and digital photos I hate the way I look. x_X; I don't know. Maybe I just need to learn to love the way I look even when I feel ugly. It's bad to dislike oneself. Bleh. Anyway. Bedtime now. Me go. Night night.