|Current mood:|| lethargic|
everything gone WRONG!
How come everyone wants me to leave their lives? Am i such a horrid person:( I gues Sean's right I shouldnt say this cuz again, ill fire jake up. "He knows what he loves, and it aint you sweetie" and "You're going to loose him either way, how much better are you gunna feel when you're holding his lifeless body in your arms" and then it was over.. He told me if i was gunna choose to go down with him, he was saying goodbye... so we said our goodbyes today. I do not know what to think anymore. and then ... what if.. forget it all. I'm going to be alone. Jake seemingly wants someone new. I don't blame him. Maybe he dont. not now at least.. maybe down the road. maybe.. I'll loose him to drugs. Maybe I'll loose him b.c i made a mistake. But I'll loose him. why? Cuz I love him. Nothing good stays in my life. I cant even feel my arms or legs. But im calm? and in so much pain. it's crazy. well imma sit here for a few.. just.. think peace.