|Current mood:|| crushed|
i dunno .. but.. today.. and yesterday.. i shoulda slept thru um. but jakes 100% right ya know. up to the point where he told me to meet other ppl. that was apunch in the face ... he may not have meant it like so. but.. dear golly it hurt. i dont want him to meet someone :'( i dont, im selfish. i dont care either. he will.. thats for sure but.. i can delay it right ? *cry* not really. maybe he wants to or has and this is what its about? i dont know. i really dont. i dont want to. i know that. i cant speak for him. i know me being a billion miles away sux, vica versa ya know? *Sigh* but im trying to make it work from what we got. i cant stand the thought of him with someone else. i cant. thats that. sorry i guess. i just.. dont even know. i no nothing but that im crying and my throat hurts. so.. imma sit here.. and put on my show that everythings okay. peace out.