I think that's called 'orgy'
So, life sucks. My life is in a shitty mess. Oh yeah.
On Monday I don't remember what happened... on Tuesday neither.
All I remember is being used on Wednesday... wait, it think it's coming back...
Again, on Monday I had History exam and the hell that it sucked... I couldn't sign my contract at the university cuz I still needed the fucking medical exams to be sure that I don't have any bloody-freaking-evil-disease that don't allow me to work... fuck that... like if it were Noah's Ark. Forget it, I was just to fed up with all the troubles that they put in the way just to stop me from working.
On Tuesday I talked with my history's teacher cuz he said that I had lost my exam, but he finally said "I was just kidding" fucking asshole. I don't find it funny. whatever, I had my medical exams and thanx geez I'm not pregnant, I don't have HIV, I'm healthy, I can work to earn US$100 monthly. Mean bastards.
However, Tuesday was a nice day, since on Monday I was so desperate and depressed. Monday sucked. Tuesday Goody!... I even had the strength to say 'no more Danny'...haaaaaaaaaaaaa... been there, done that already.
On Wednesday I was happy enjoying my all-new-employed life when I had a chat with Danny... he asked me to go to the Office and give him his Milo... ohh fuck I forgot that I feed this misbehaved-Milo-man... I felt completely used... he said something like "Are you coming here today? oh, don't forget my coffe" Jerk.
......... but I'm the jerk #1 cuz I did it... I took my time (feeling how I had control over my time... ohhh big bullshit.), and I went there. He was busy so I waited outside. While I was there keeping the coffe hot, Seth and Liliam arrived... oh nice visit. Then, 5 minutes later I found myself in this dark place, we all locked inside trying to convince Liliam to do this fucking orgy with the three of us... It was premeditated and Danny didn't tell me... ok, no... let's tell the whole story:
Seth was half-drunk and he knew that Liliam had this fantasy about doing a threesome with 2 men... so he said 'Ok Ashley, let's do the 3some' so they agreed but couldn't find the third victim... after thinking about it a long-not-so-long time they called Danny and he said 'sure, you both come here' while he was asking me to gave him his coffe... but he thought it was a joke so he didn't say anything to me, at least that was what he said to me the day after... now we can suppose he's a liar, and he thought 'hell, if it happens, at least I want her to be here' for a lot of reasons:
#1. Let's picture Seth naked: Burns of The Simpsons.
#2. Let's picture Liliam naked: Selma or Patty of The Simpsons.
#3. I'm his nasty sex toy to do crazy stuff like an spontaneous orgy and 3some and shit.
So now, you can imagine how it happened. It was funny, yeah it was. It all started like a game. Liliam wasn't prepared to see me there so she started to play the 'I-don't-know-what-are-you-doing' and 'my-boss-is-drunk-I-didn't-want-an-orgy' and shit. Bitch. In the middle of our game Seth and Danny got naked and wanted us to get naked too. I laughed and though 'well, now I'm here, I haven't done this before, Danny is so hard... let's do it' and got naked too. Liliam did it too a few minutes later.
A lot of funny things happened, a few just pissed me off. I'm going to do the list of happenings right here:
#1. when the boys got naked they asked us to touch them, I laughed and Liliam somehow panicking said to me "you touch him {pointing Danny}, you already know him" like 'you have blown that dick before, so touch him bitch'.......... slut... she said that 3 times!!! conclusion: She and Jane had talked a lot about us!! bitches...
#2. when we were completely naked, Danny hugged me from behind and started touching my tits while pushed his dick trying to fuck me, while Seth touched my clit {complete heaven!!!!}... everything cool until Liliam the slut came and said "Let me see how it feels" and torn me apart from Danny and took my place!! Leaving me with Seth!!!! Fucking bitch!.... I had to touch him cuz there was no option...
A few minutes later I said "Let's change" and she answered laughing "No way"... FUCKING BITCH!!!
I know that stroking Burns isn't the most appealing and sexy thing to do, but hell!! she showed definitely that she wanted Danny!! bitch!!
#3. So, Seth started touching me, I didn't let him penetrate me, but he touched me... I couldn't help but think in Danny... I imagined that his fingers were caressing my skin, and that the wonderful sensation that made me moan out load was caused by his hands and his mouth in my breasts.... not Seth's...
#4. Danny started moaning too... immediately I tried to see if he had penetrated the slut, but I couldn't see a thing!!! it was too dark and I couldn't see where were all the hands!!!... I couldn't come cuz I couldn't let me go on sensations, cuz my brain was stuck trying to clear my sight.
#5. Danny finally came on the floor, like always doing a freaking mess. After he came, he started laughing when he saw Seth trying to come... jejejeje, Seth was too drunk and after the laughs he couldn't come.
It was an interesting yet disgusting yet sexy yet weird yet nasty experience.
On Thursday I had cybersex with Danny in the morning. I said "you fucked Liliam!!!" like 'how disgusting!!' and he said that he didn't do it, she did stuff to him but he didn't penetrate her.... I felt peace after that... but then he started saying that he was thinking about me all the time, that he was so hot after I started moaning... he said that he had never saw me completely naked before, and he liked it, {I liked him!!} he said that the contrast of my dark hair against my white skin turned him on...
... yeah, that turned me on too... so we have a nice chat... I started touching myself but then my new boss arrived and behind him a lot of people and I couldn't do anything!!! I felt a little bit frustrated, and sooo hot... and I had a Math class!! it was weird.
In the afternoon, we just did the nookie like we haven't done in a loooong time... I had 2 orgasms!!! gee, this orgy thing is really therapeutic!!!
On Friday I felt cool until I told Ashley about it, then I felt used. She said that it was disgusting and I was doing it just to make Danny happy, and hell! I fucking liked it! but yeah, I know that she's right... I'm somehow doing it just to make sure that he never forgets me... and that's sad.
So in the afternoon I bought cigarettes and started smoking like I haven't done in a long time.
Long story short, I got drunk. I dedicated a pretty sad song to Danny and I know he felt like shit. Will bought me to my home in a cab. I cried my ass off in the cab... I have never sold myself with Will, but I was drunk and I wasn't thinking at all, so I just told him that I felt so bad... I told him that the 5th of September was an important date for me, cuz it was one year since I'm in this shit with Danny... and yeah I *did* cried.
Will tried to console me. I got home in a very bad state, and my father just insulted me, he said I was an idiot, an stupid girl, not able to say 'no', bullshit bullshit. Ashley called while he was doing that, so he insulted Ashley too.
On Saturday I thought I had to take my stuff out of my house, but surprisingly all that my father said is that he was tired of us all, we all were idiots, so he was going to leave. Shit. It sounds terrible, but now that I think about it, yeah it's awful, but somehow releasing... he has mistreat us psychologically for long years... that would be the end of that bullshit...
In the afternoon Danny called me to my c-phone. He said he was worried. {I made Will swear that he would never tell Danny about what happened in the cab, but I guess he said something... @@@@}... I told him that I was fine just had an awful headache {-_-}... I told him my problem with my father and he tried to console me too... pretty sweet.
In the night I talked with Ashley, I tried to apologize for the show that my father did last night, but she was ok with it, she said that she understood and shit... she scold me for what happened, she said that it was enough of Danny, and a lot of things about how much I was worth to be doing so much for him, she ever threatened me that if I didn't change she would talk with Danny... fuck, that scared me!!... but surprisingly I wasn't pissed off... I guess that deep in my soul I know she's right... and again I feel strong enough to say 'no more bullshit'.... I hope I can keep that up for the next week.
So, that's it... life sucks and somehow it's changing... but still sucks, and will suck all the time.
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