|Current mood:|| good|
|Current music:||good to know - brand new|
havn't updated for a while but..
im confused about nelson sometimes i like him sometimes i dont hes goin to florida for 2 weeks thank god hopefully i need someone new i cant wait to get the feeling again when u really like the person i dont have that w. nelson when i see him i dont get butterflies when i see his name on my caller id i dont get excited i hate kissing him and i hate him touching me theres absolutely no chemistry but i convince myself i like him bc he treats me good nd when im bored hes there to chill w. me its horrible i kno ... kyle is still missing his mom called me 2 days ago crying i felt so bad shes like at this point i dont know if hes dead or alive and im like i kno , i feel the same way i cried so much when i saw the movie ghost the other day bc kyle can be right next to me it freaks me out i cry way too much. i want a puppy so bad! i've never had a dog or nething my family arnt really pet ppl but now i want one soo bad i dont think im getting one =/ <3 alyssa
* today was the last day of school for 2 weeks !!!! im so excited ! christmas is days away it scares me bc i kno im gonna be a crying mess on x mas and since im single im gonna be 1000x worse ! i hope kyle at least calls for x mas i want to kno if he's ok i never thought one year ago that i would be in this mess 2day and that i'd fall in love but honestly idk what i would do differently bc i love him so much and i dont regret one moment we spent together .. awesome im crying again
** today would have been our one year and one month anniversery