niki (manicmurderdoll) wrote, @ 2005-06-13 14:41:00

dead inside
Living dead girl

I have a pulse

my heart beats on

inside I am dead

emotionally necrotic

completely neurotic

sick in the head

Why am I living

I wish that I was dead

For all intents and purposes

I am dead anyway

I'm not really alive

not in any way that counts

vital signs don't

mean a damn thing

when inside I am

decomposing

Rotting away

hollowed out

as if I drank bleach

and my body forgot to die

along with my spirit

and my mind

A festering mental cancer

like a mass of tumors

oh no that's just my brain

exise it please

cut it out NOW

Make the noise stop

silence all the sounds

I just want some

peace of mind

want some quiet

need some dead time

Haunted relentlessly

my ghosts clank their chains

endlessly, clamorously

my demons demand to

be recognized

someone please call a priest

I need an exorcism

cast out the blackness

grant me absolution

help me find some peace

My flesh may be living

my soul is long gone

my heart may be beating

my blood may be pulsing

thru my veins

my hope died

a long time ago

no reason for me to

keep going on

too many tears

I have cried

I just want set free

dead out and inside

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