Freaks & Geeks
Well we survived another amateur show... Went relatively well actually - had a packed house and everyone seemed to enjoy themselves... I just don't know about doing this anymore... It has becoming so big and is so exhausting... And the tips that are made are not worth the cost to get the show rolling. I just don't look forward to it anymore. It has become more of a dread than anything else. And I ended up walking off the stage in the middle of performing. It was just like a train wreck I wanted to get away from.
I just don't know what to do, because so many people look forward to it each month - and to Dazey performing... I just think I am too old for this shit. And I somehow did something to my back (again) and have been living on Percocet like candy all weekend. Today I feel like someone has just kicked the shit out of me. Have been living downstairs all weekend because I can't brave the stairs without being in tears... Missed Mother's Day yesterday because I couldn't even walk from the truck to the picnic table without crying.
I want it to be my turn - just once. I am so worn out from doing and supplying and supporting for eveyone else all the time...
Whine. Whine. Whine.
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