Feel'n crazy
The days… the days are alright- it’s the nighttime, when everything is still, everything is quiet when I am left with nothing but myself and my thoughts. During the day I am a typical 19 year old girl- I go to work, I laugh and joke with my friends, I help my little sister with her homework- but when night comes and the world retreats into silence, that’s when I doubt my sanity. It’s seems easy during the day- to play their little game, to wear my happy face, but more and more I find myself breaking down when left alone at night to wander around my own mind. Every pain that I have ever experienced haunts me- somehow in the darkness the hurt amplifies itself- every loss, every heartbreak feels like new. I think of things that were and things that could be- and all I feel is empty and unfulfilled. I can’t help but feel like I am missing something. My close friends come and go, I have no love to speak of, and I am an orphan of circumstance- my life feels empty and shallow. Once I was out to prove to the world that I could rise above adversity- that I was strong and could take whatever the world threw at me, but now…. Why go on to each new day? What am I living for?
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