|Current mood:|| stressed|
|Current music:||Baby Einstein (Baby Mozart)|
'Tis the Season!!!
So, yeah, we went Christmas shopping and can I just tell you that it was absolute hell! I feel like we just spent $400 for no good reason...when that could of gone towards bills and rent. We decided to just do a kids Christmas this year so it would be cheaper but it didnt turn out to be as cheap as I thought. Oh well....I know the kids will be excited so its all worth it I guess. We still haven't gotten Hannah anything though...or Emme for that matter. We bought her some clothes but toys are so much more fun to open than clothes, or thats how I felt when I was little anyway....I HATED getting clothes! I guess shes too young to care anyway...as long as she can eat the bow, I think we're gonna be okay.
I'm so frustrated. I feel like no matter how hard we try, we can't get ahead...ever. I'm sure a lot of people feel this way but I just invisioned a life for me and my family and this isnt what I was thinking. I wanted to be able to give my kids whatever they need without worrying about how we're going to keep the electricity on....or decide between paying the phone bill or buying groceries. I know that it could be so much worse....and I am thankful for everything that I do have and I'm sure life is never going to be easy. Hasn't ever been simple so why should it start now? Anyways, so no more bitching. I just wanted to vent for a minute.
I think Shea is having a girl. Shes my best friend and her baby is due 3 weeks after Emme. She thinks shes having a boy but I have a really strong feeling its a girl...and I havent been wrong yet. My friend Kandise had a baby 1 and a half months after i had Hannah and I told her the entire time she was pregnant she was having a girl...sure enough, she has a Lilly now. I called Tracy's baby to be a boy and turned out he was....Victoria and Jill both had girls, like I said. Anyways....just random thought.