| Current mood: |  crushed |
| Current music: | Letting the Cables Sleep - Bush |
What a day.
I...don't even know how to begin this entry. I've just had a BAD fucking day. Let me summarize, if possible.
1.) I had the most mentally disturbing dream I've ever had, and woke up in shock, crying. I called out for Robbie and he hugged me until I stopped crying. I looove my brother <3
2.) Got contacts..that's cool, but they won't come out haha. I've been trying for a long time and they're driving me nuts. I finally broke down and cried for a few minutes (see mainly 3, sorta 2), and now they're hella dry. I don't see myself getting used to these.
3.) Oliver broke things off through an email...with a line I've heard about 5 times before. Not wanting anything serious. He still wants to hang out and whatnot, but I don't think I could knowing he doesn't feel the way I do. I hate getting attached to people who don't feel the same. I feel pretty lead on..thought something was there...ehh, whatever, moving on...
4.) One of my best friends had sex with a guy I've liked for nearly 2 years. Just found out today, even though it happened a few months ago, and neither of them said a word about it. I know I have no control over who either of them has sex with, but...damn. They decided not to tell me because they didn't want to hurt my feelings, but honestly..it hurts more knowing they kept it from me and I had to find out accidently from someone else. And the fact it even happened in the first place. I already talked to him about it...but I don't even know what to say to her. I just feel like I've been stabbed in the back and the front. I'll make a seperate certain-friends-only entry about it later to explain how I feel I guess.
I mean, I'll get over it, I always do...it's happened before..I let people just walk all over me a lot and I just bottle it up, grin, and bear it...but oh well. I have a lot of thinking to do.
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