|Current mood:|| distressed|
|Current music:||Radiohead- Paranoid Android|
Little angel go away
So I've lapsed back into my old old self again: an apathetic, threatening asshole. Maybe between my juvenile cries for attention I could find some way to change.... but i think I'm just too lazy. I apologize to anyone that i hurt as my newfound self. Hopefully this me wont survive too long. I'm not sure how I got to be this way again, but there are a few things i am sure of.
I am tired of being just a friend to everybody. My whole body is tense and shuddering with longing.
I've slipped deeper into that dark place that so many people go farther than I've ever gone before. I can't see any light above me, and I'm not sure I ever will.
I'm becoming more friendly with the devil than i ever wanted to be.
I can't stop myself this time. I just love it so much.
To anyone who reads this: just remember that no matter what i do, I will always love you all and never meant to hurt anyone by any of my actions.