He's a different kind of guy. I do think he has been hit pretty close by cancer, but I also think he's incredibly jaded by his time in academics. He spent a lot of our meeting telling me how studies like mine don't get published because they don't work. And then he went on to rattle off a half dozen of his attempts to make something vaguely similar work. I understand this is his experience speaking, but I also understand that nothing is guaranteed to work. It might not work, but it MIGHT work. That's all the hope I need.
As for who I am, I am happy with that person. Honestly, I've felt more comfortable in my own skin the past year or so than I ever have. A lot of that has to do with accepting who I am and being happy with that person, flaws included. I'm not sure where I'd be without cancer. Sometimes it sucks, but a lot of the time it's been a good thing. I think it's all a matter of perception.